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Having Goals I have goals and I like the fact that I do. It makes me feel like I have purpose, that I have some direction I need to follow. However, it often feels suffocating, demotivating, it makes me feel envious of others, it makes me feel that I’m unaccomplished or that I’m falling behind because of I haven’t done enough. These are the feelings of having goals. But how do you achieve goals. Well you work towards them obviously! It’s always an incremental step towards success and rarely ever an overnight one. Whether it’s career goals, financial goals, or creative goals, it takes work to get there. This brings me to habits. If you want to be an artist they say you gotta draw everyday, if you want to be an engineer, you gotta study the math and science, if want to become a world-class swimmer. Well you go to train and compete constantly. ...

I’m on my second week and to my surprise, all my anxieties and insecurities subsided really quickly. It had been while since I’ve had a proper schedule or talk to people in person on a frequent basis but I’m glad at how smoothly I’ve been able to reacclimate and I’ve been feeling a lot happier as a result. Anyways so far, it’s just been a lot of intro talk and fundamentals of concepts I’ve already learned before. There are some teasers of new and interesting content up to come like the graphics pipeline but we’ve yet to wok directly with it. ...

Today is my first official day of class attending the Advanced Programming program at Sheridan College. To commemorate this, I’ve reorganized my whole directory structure for this blog to be organized by year and month rather than sub topics. I’ve been finding the subtopic folders to be growing far to fast (particularly the dev folder) to keep posting all in one place. This way, my working directory is ever only so large for each month and I’m also relieved of the duty of figuring out which folder I should be making my post in. I mentioned before how I feel too inclined to make each blog post substantial and with purpose rather than just posting freely. I think uncategorizing each post will make it easier to just post updates and devlogs as well. ...

I’ve been trying to get into the habit of drawing casually as opposed to doing so as part of some contest or project. Part of that is just drawing what I feel in the moment. I’m not intending to follow any style but at the same time I’m not stopping myself from easing any habits which resulted with a few pictures that do share a style. I always felt with drawing that I have no clue what my style is. For instance, everytime I play Gartic Phone, I tend to do something different each time and I don’t find myself easing into any one method. Perhaps more casual art does a better job at bringing out the characteristics of my drawing. ...

Hi, I’m a developer. That in itself doesn’t mean too much really and for me it only really marks the beginning of what I would like to do and achieve. I’ve read my share of devlogs and appreciate the amount of value it gives to readers while also envying the sheer knowledge and coherence each of the authors are able to display. I hope I can also create devlogs of similar value. Saying that, I don’t really expect to have an audience in this blog–infact part of me is too embarrassed to have this shown to anyone. ...